So I’m back! And this time hopefully with a purpose. The past [almost] three months since I have been off I have realized and discovered a lot. I have learned about friendships, relationships, schooling, and ultimately my future.
I have lost lately, yet I have gained so much. I lost a best-friend, who resembled a sister. I gained a job, a relationship (semi-better) with my parents, I have realized my capabilities, my strong points, and I have started believing in myself. I have noted that recovery is finally changing my life, for the better. I am almost at the correct titration for my medicine, and I am on the road to happiness, closer and closer as the days pass.
I’ve decided I want to help. I want to help those who suffer from disorders and disabilities. I plan on becoming a Literacy Interventionist- serving emotionally disturbed and learning disabled children who have social skills deficits, mental health issues, and behavioral challenges. But my ultimate goal is to create an after school program for children with anxiety and conflicts with self-image.
Anyways, I am back because I want to write. I want to relate. I won’t be on much, but I will attempt to write about an experience and how I overcame it, hopefully providing insight and answer to the best of my ability.
I hope you all stick around, give me feedback, and ask questions, tell me your experiences, what you’re going through, etc.Yours truly :)
I’m really over Tumblr lately. I remember first starting my Tumblr, I thought “wow, I can finally spill my feelings and not feel as if I am the only one feeling like this.” But lately I’ve noticed that Tumblr has become an incredibly hostile environment, and it has continuously gotten in the way of my full potential in recovery. It’s as if everyone is competing, who has the worst life, worst eating disorder, worst depression, and it’s fucking stupid. One thing I’ve learnt through the months I’ve been recovering is that not everyone supports your recovery, and you, unfortunately, need to realize that you’re going to lose friends and people because they’re enablers, triggers. And this is exactly what I am doing. Tumblr is my biggest enabler and trigger, it advocates depression and eating disorders as a normal and “cool” thing. I deserve better than this. I deserve to be happy.